Entry title: A little lonely~~a little sucess~~
Date / Time : Saturday, October 31, 2009 / 10:27 PM
Everyone is working hard for the finals.. hoping to get the bestthey could in the first sem.. of course, i'm going to do the same.. the different part is.. this time, i prefer to be alone.. It's for several reason.. first, to concentrate more on wat im aiming, second.. keep myself well occupied with books in watever time thts left for me to study.. in short, stop wasting my time.. and so.. i went to the library... studying all i can, but when i was about to head home.. holding a stack of books walking toward the car park.. with the big blue sky above my head .. there was a certain of loneliness in me.. not that type of feeling where others abandoned me, nor being boycott by my friends.. it's just a feeling of going through life fighting alone.. Long time ago.. there was someone who told me this, If u ought to be successful, u'll need to be lonely for a certain time.. Because that's wat it takes to be successful.. Now, i totally understand what he meant. Then i have a really scary nightmare yesterday.. i dreamt of the world coming to an end.. everything is destroyed.. and im all alone again.. i couldnt contact the one i love.. dnt know where there are or are they still surviving... when i open my eyes, im there in my room.. all alone.. that really creeps me out.. i've never been so scared to be lone b4.. maybe i just think too much.. but it was like something so damn real for me.. after that i just sat at the living room wondering.. what will happen if it really happen to me... gosh... suddenly.. just need a big hug from someone.. perhaps anyone.. to actually realise my existen.. i dont deny being to stress... but who wouldnt in this type of time.. maybe sometimes i would just over react.. after all, someone normal wouldn't think such thing at such time huh..for now.. my conclusion is... take a bath.. stop thinking nonsense.. and start doing maths question.bye..
