Entry title: silent is golden?
Date / Time : Saturday, May 30, 2009 / 8:27 AM
I've said to post lots of emo post on my blog recently.. and most of my friends that read it ask why.. sometimes, i just feel tht letting out in words literally is much more better verbally. its not wrong to say tht i really have mental break down recently.. but again.. i dont know why..yes, i admit tht i tend to stay silent alot..i prefer to think alone, act alone, and cry alone..maybe thts wat happen when u become too strong, u'll never let anyone know how u feel, preferably..let everyone think tht u're doing ok. Everyone in this world lived for a reason, at least i believe tht its true. i've always wonder wat will happen if im not in this world anymore.. will it be a better place? or will it feel my absence? well, dont worry, im not going to commit suicide.. just i feel disgust when i need someone by my side.. i feel weak.. i feel useless..is it wat will happen when u're to strong? i wish there would be someone there to let me know its ok to be vulnerable.. but everytime i wanted to tell anyone my feelings, silent is the only word tht i could think of.. in a way, its good tht no one knows ur secret.. but in contrast, its hurt when the person u love dont even know wat happen to u.. silent? really golden?
