I dont know if anyone of u have tried to smile while crying.. but it feels much worse to do that..cause its actually forcing urself to be happy when u are really sad.. so..............................smilling while crying.. a bitter experience..or vice versa, its a kind of feeling.. touched, gratitude, being owned.. well, it depends... at least i experienced both...
For me, tears is something special..something tht i think meant something..
tears for
-happiness
-sadness
-worries
-tension
and etc................................
Yes, it means i've cried recently.. and is is all because of a customer...and i felt really ashamed of myself.. honesltly..these few days, im really not in mood to work.. just hope i could stop working.. but somehow, i still need to continue working for the extra $$$... yup.. is $$$ again... but wat to do.. haihz~~!
I've really did many things today, i did things tht other service crew wouldnt want to do.. wipe all the sushi king windows, do soaking, clean the carpet, wipe each corner of the table and everything on the table.. just do ..do ...do ...and do.. its kinda wierd cause my other friends were actually kidding around and im the only one who is doing things non stop.. mm.. thts wat i'll do when im not in mood.. make myself feel tired and exhausted.. and eventually i'll cry... luckily.. i did not cry today..then..................................
i thought of things that i dislike and made me feel unhappy..
- scolded by ppl when im not in fault (hate it extremely!!)
-being left out in a group
-laugh by other ppl (embarrased)
-being alone..
-challenge by ppl..
-being unappreciated..
-pretend to be happy...( i did this alot!!)
-being underestimate..
-and so much more..
p/s: i think of this cause it happened to me all the time these few days~ sad~
normally, i'll only thinkof updating my blog when im really unhappy or im really happy.... well, imreally unhappy now actually...family things,+ studies+ work+friends all crank up together... haihz.. really hate it..
