Entry title: the 'come- back'
Date / Time : Monday, January 12, 2009 / 8:36 AM
I was there..wondering, I was there..hoping, I was there..praying, I was there..with him,
I wonder why did i fail, I hope my wishes would come true, I prayed for a miracle, He gave me the strenght to breath,
I've fail to dream, My wishes are vail, Miracles.. one and only thing i believe, Because he is one..
Im back in kluang, actually its quite a long time already..maybe.. just dont have the mood yet to blog anything.. after working for only 4 days in singapore..i've understand the feeling of sadness, hopeless, loneliness...and feelings that i cant describe in words. Yuan lai, words are so powerful.. when i was there, the only word that keep crossing my mind was..." you can always come back if ur not happy there, its ok de.. dont worry.. dont have to be scared". whenever i think of this, my tears just start to roll.. there is one time where i need to hide in the toilet and cry..the new environment plus the bad flu i had= breakdown+ back to kluang.. i feel like a complete loser to come back..maybe because i went there and set a high target or me to achieve.. mainly, to get enough money for me to study.. but .. i've failed.. the perserverence and determination i had all this year ..just suddenly disappear when i was there.maybe its because i went there to wrk for money and not to kust for the sake of working and gaining experience.. thts why i've failed..
