Entry title: new feelings~
Date / Time : Monday, December 29, 2008 / 9:43 AM
Ben lai ler, i really want to sambung the last post de la.. but, that post is suppose to talk something useless la.. so this post, i'll like to say something which i have experience it before, BUT, in different perspectives.
Once, i felt scared, lonely, sad, because someone very important to me needs to leave me to create his own future. i perservere... i waited. However, it was a tragic end but we do have lots of great memories. I often think tht the person leaving will not understand the pain of the person being left. i guess i was really wrong.
In fact,
It was much worse. now, im leaving, to ensure there is an assuarance for my future, i felt a 100 times worse than wat i have expected. The feelings are suppose to be same, but no it isnt, it was totally different. I am scared to leave my love ones, to go into a different world, and definitely sad to leave them. i'll miss u guys so much. my parents, my joey, my brother (although he is really lazy), and someone very special to me, my dear. mm.. no more ppl to remind me to do this and tht anymore.. i'll miss them so so so much.
Honestly, i really dont feel like going to work anymore, after thinking of those i love so much, but sad to say, the money that i need to earn is really important to me. i really hope i could lighten my mum's burden. and most important of all, i need this sum of money to pay for the first semester of my studies in college if i couldnt get results good enought to get into uni. really hope i could actually, my mum always wished tht one of us would get into uni, and ya, i really hope that i could make her dreams come true. haih.. i got so many things to say. But. i'll leave everything to the last night before i leave kluang. (if the job thing is successfull) . now is exactly 2. 00am and my eyes areally tired.. nitez~!
