Entry title: Christmas
Date / Time : Saturday, November 29, 2008 / 7:19 AM
Just dont know why.. but i really feel like writing this post.. Maybe its because i like to write alot when im unhappy i guess.. ya.. indeed.. im not feeling very happy.. but, well, today, i'll like to write something that i like a lot Chritmas Christmas is the day that i feel comfort~peace~and happiness. It really meant alot to me.. On that day, i would just feel that all those problems around me would dissappear for a moment and i would just live in a fairy tale.. at that moment, i'll just like to spent the whole night with someone special. mm.. however, i always fail to tht. i guess, i'll just go through another year myself. wat just amazed me is the atmosphere, lighting, music, food, people. by just lookng at people's smile can melt my heart, my listening to the rythm of the music makes me feel the world is full of hope. ya, my ideal cristmas? lets put it a secret, from the description i gave, i think its pretty easy to guess huh? well, thats all i think.. i've always wanted a simple life.. just a life tht ppl would appreciate me, and a life that there is always hope.. Sometimes, a little celebration like christmas would make me feel much better. Why?? i dont really know.. just a feeling, the light of hope, maybe, this year, i'll plan to go somewhere tht no one knows me and no one should know where i am? a symbol of?? start a new. The burden on my shoulders are getting heavier each day just want to run away for a while from all the problems and have some time for myself. I've been living in my dream all this while, i think its time for me to get up and start working hard for my dream. My ex-bf once told me that in order to be a successfull person~, u'll need to sacrifice something to be successfull. I dont really think that is true at first, but now, ~ ya... i agree with him. I might be really hurt on the sacrifice i made, but, i will make sure that i redeem the chance to make things right. I may hate myself now~ but i will take the opportunity to let me love myself. waiting for ppl to love u more?? why dont love urself more?? This year christmas? I'll surely make myself happy.
